This is not gonna be an easy article. Two days ago I was admitted to the hospital to induce my labor because of Em’s growth restriction and my small polyhydramnios issue. They inserted foley balloon inside my cervix and I waited in pain the whole night, hoping its gonna make my cervix ready. Insertion of foley balloon is not really painful, just really discomforting. But I yelled a bit anyway. Since the balloon is inflated, it makes your body go through Braxton-Hicks contraction and very painful ones if I can say. But what did I know about pain then?
Next day. Yesterday. They got rid of the balloon and inserted a pill inside my cervix. Nothing pleasant either, so I yelled again. After two hours, nothing happened, so I got another pill inserted there and I waited another two hours. Then they poked my water. That was especially hurtful. And then I got oxytocin drip to get my pains started and they did. They were manageable at first but boy it got worse. I started losing control and I cried because I was unable to even get a grip of those contractions. Breathing didn’t help, swaying around didn’t help either and also I had to be monitored almost all the time and they made me lie on one side, so managing the pain on the bed and just one side was hard.
Then I got an epidural. The doctor couldn’t find the right spot. He found it for the third try and then I got some relief, finally. I was at 4 cm then. And nothing happened afterward. I stopped feeling contractions completely, but even though some people said that you get relaxed and that the contraction happens even when you don’t feel them, my cervix just stopped dilating. So they cut my epidural drip in half and they doubled the oxytocin drip. I started cramping again but it didn’t help. At this point, I was so tired and the baby was tired too. I didn’t even notice when she stopped moving.
After an hour, my doctor was sure, this is not gonna work. It was 9 pm. (I started at 7,30am) and he did an emergency C-section. Fun fact – they prepare everything around you in the ER first, including the facade between your face and stomach because they have only five minutes to get the baby out, so it wouldn’t be affected by the anesthesia drug. So they did my C-section, got the baby out. They found out that I have so many leftover growths in my abdomen from past surgeries that they had a problem to get the baby out without making permanent damage to my intestines. And they don’t recommend another baby, because if there should be C-section again, there would be a possibility that I wouldn’t make it.
But that wasn’t all. You would expect that after all this trouble, at least the baby will be ok.
Her Apgar score was 10-10-10. But when they wanted to check her stomach they found out they can’t reach it and that she has esophageal atresia. So they took her away after a few minutes she spent with my husband and moved her to a hospital in Prague.
Also, there was one luck in all of this. She had her cord around her neck so there would be another complication if I would give birth normally.
This is the reason why I don’t approve of home deliveries. Because I would be dead and my daughter would be dead too.
She’s in surgery right now. I think of her all the time and I can’t wait to meet her for the first time.